My Story

“Hello there.

Let me tell you a little about my journey. As a teen, my health was not great. I hardly embodied the youthful energy one would typically expect for that age. I was diagnosed with Glandular Fever at the age of 13 and the symptoms of fatigue never seemed to go away.

Just before leaving school at 17, I signed with Elite Model Agency and was immersed in a decade of adventure and hedonistic fun. I was presented with many opportunities and had many incredible experiences, yet there was always an underlying feeling of having a lack of purpose. I was often interviewed by teen magazines, asking how I stayed so ‘fit and healthy’. The truth was, I was far from living a healthy lifestyle. I lived off caffeine and artificial sweetener, and I was adding to a false image of health and beauty that deep down, I did not agree with. So I set my challenge to understand how to be fit, bright-eyed and happy - genuine way.

However, it was interesting that during this time of reduced calorie intake and instability, I had more energy. I felt happier was clearer-minded. I had sharper memory, I was more creative and needed less sleep. I discovered through research, trial and error, that I had been consuming the wrong fuel for my body and that during the years of modelling I had unintentionally adopted a type of elimination diet. I realised it was like I had been filling my unleaded car with diesel, so I decided to adopt a primative diet of protein, low sugar and carbs. I have never felt better and it has remained my diet for over 2 decades.

After this decade I felt the need to reconnect with my true identity and return to my roots. I left New York to spent time with friends, family and nature. I had spent the last 10 years exploring the outer world and now I needed to understand my inner world. I embraced the Art of Living programme, an ancient practice of yoga, meditation and profound wisdom. It took me around the world and I attended various silent retreats in India, Europe and America. I spent weeks embodying minimal thought, just “being” and was able to a degree, to access my subconscious world. The meditation and breathwork, accessed emotions held in the body and I discovered that feelings are associated with a breath rhythm. For example, anger and can induce short, shallow breaths, shock can result in sharp in-breaths and sadness, long, outward sighs. I was able to shed layers of old ‘baggage,’ some of which I had no idea where it came from. I began to realise that much of what we carry is beyond our conscious understanding. This was just the beginning of a long journey of discovery that was more fascinating than any photo shoot or runway show (although they were fun!).

I studied Shiatsu with the KiKai School of Shiatsu in London for 4 years and enrolled on a degree course at the University of Westminster, London for 3 years. I graduated in 2004 with a BSc (Hons) in Complementary Studies and I now have a detailed understanding of the body and mind within a scientific context.

However, I knew intuition could not be graded or learned conventionally and that I had to continue my journey to develop my inner world. This is when I discovered Elenor Tonetti, founder of Birth into Being and director of the beautiful, life-affirming film “Birth as we Know It.” She is a known authority on working with the limbic imprint, the primal part of the brain that influences our thoughts and actions. She believes it is everyone’s personal responsibility to release their ‘baggage’ to avoid passing it on to the next generation. Elena’s belief is that we pass on our consciousness as much as we do our genes.

After the birth of my 2 children, I worked as a doula for over 10 years, assisting over 50 births, every one of which was beautiful in its own unique way.

And the journey continues…Thank you for hearing my story.